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MY MUSE

by: hannah chang schroeder

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my beautiful flower

dancing in the shower

on a cold winter night

you know how to make me warm

you know how to keep away the swarm

the swarm of bees that fly into me

stabbing my should with a sharp dagger

you divert them with your beauty

so mesmerizing and sweet

calm and cool

you weave through my body

like silk on water

you make me feel sick to my stomach

the loves bellows in my face

the smoke forms a cloud around us

protecting us from everything bad in this queotic world

you are me and i am you but we are separate

hug me, squeeze me until my organs fall out on the table

splat goes me heart on to the dinner plate

a nice human fleshy date

my brains spill on to the napkin

flowing like the ocean

my body falls apart

piece by piece

into the plater of you

you make me smile

you make me cry

i want to look into you abyss of eyes

until the end of time

you can call me mine

love

you

are

muse

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FIVE TISSUES AT THE PHOENIX AIRPORT

by: hannah chang schroeder

my computer on my lap

bag to my side and

coat on the other side

too lazy to pack up my shit and walk to the bathroom

to get

tissue

i kindly ask the middle aged

mom

to watch over my belongings while

i make the small trip around the corner to the bathroom

" i have a kleanex you can use"

she hands me five

i turn around to face the trash can

blow my dry nose

and blood comes out

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I FLY BY YOU

by:hannah chang schroeder

I fly by you
Going 0 miles per hour
Sliding out of the womb
I fly by you tripping on the ground falling in piles of socks
I fly by you
I fly by you walking on the street
Throwing change by your feet
I fly by you smoking a cigarette
After watching my grandmother heart stop from lung failure
I fly by you
Slower and faster
The change of pace makes me dizzy
I want to throw up
I fly by you on my bicycle
100 miles per hour
You are in a car and there is a stop sign
I don’t stop,
I fly by you
I am wearing a red coat at night and the cars don’t see me
I fly by you
I fly by you pissed drunk
The blur of your face rubs a picture in my mind
I fall off a trunk and scar my body as
I
Fly by
You

I fly by you on my birthday
Everything is loud and happy
You look at my and I at you
While I fly by you
I fly by you as I pass you on the bus
A small girl winks at me
I fly by you
I fly by you with a knife in my hand
I stab the water mellow and juices fly everywhere
I fly by you in my wheelchair
Rolling toward the door way to the garden
I fly by you in my sleep
I fly by you
I fly by you in the subway
The tunnel comes to an end
The lights go out

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TIME

by: hannah chang schroeder
Time moves fast…
Like shooting stars into to the dark universe
When does it end?
Smearing blue paint on a black canvas
I can’t see where one line ends and the other begins
My days turn into periods of time that are blurred together
How can I save this moment if it has no beginning and no end?
The dream world and the real world form into one
A world of clocks that do not tick and moon like suns
The line between night and day is too thin to see
So I close my eyes and float into time
What ever that may mean.

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TRIANGLE

by: hannah chang schroeder

the stars appeared in triangles
sets of three dots thrown in the sky
i felt as if the sky was my ceiling and i could touch it with my palm
grabbing every star and connecting the lines to make the triangles

when i shut my eyes i saw purple sparks flying around
a foggy blue light flashed in front of me as i opened my eyes to the night sky
i was laughing

i thought we were alone on the driveway
until i saw the porch light come on and and two people walked out
smoking a cigarette

i could see the smoke float into space
my breath become part of the air
a meteor
green and purple
dance in front of my face

just in time for me to see it

it was so perfect

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TORNADO

by: hannah chang schroeder

i had a dream
that i was in a tornado with you
the house was lifted
as the house was spinning we grabbed on to the railing for dear life and pulled
ourselves into the basement
the concrete was shaking
the storm passed
but your mother was driving
we cannot find her
and my car is
smashed

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My Mind is a Volcano

By: Hannah Chang

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I dedicate this poem to all my past, present and future educators and mentors who very personally witnessed my volcanic mind at work!

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My life is crazy

My life is crazy happy

My life is crazy sad

My life is crazy mad

My life aint crazy bad

My life is crazy weird

My life is crazy everyday

I thanks God now that my life is crazy sober, every single day!

My mind is a volcano

It continually erupts

The lava never solidifies and the warm liquid flows down my body

I need to quick grab a pen or keyboard

To write all these burning ideas down

To capture the flame of thought

Before it escapes my brain

Forget but not forgot

My hands cannot keep up with my mind

I fear I might leave a thought behind

But I never look back

Have no regrets

Because every mistake I make holds my hand all of the time

My lessons walk with me in the middle of the night

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UNTITLED KISS

by: hannah chang schroeder

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I loved kissing you on the bridge
You made me quiver deep in my heart
The butterflies were shaking in my organs of organs
Deep inside my soul
To the pitt of my being

Everything that existed stopped
For a moment in time
When we met lips

Lips of lips I am lost in your kiss
Underneath the picnic table
Listening to a compact disc
I could hold you forever

Your fingers fell over my skin
Like fiery silk on water
Gliding through galaxies
Not stopping to look at stars but to explode

Wheels a turning in your abyss of eyes
Staring into my soul
You can see my true essence

You move me up a mountain
You touch me like a goddess
i would worship you all night in the temple of my sheets

Smoking a cigarette
The smoke rises into the sunset
As your face touches mine

I am lost inside the world of you.

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HAIKUS FOR CALIFORNIANS

by: hannah chang schroeder

take it from the girl
the one with the purple hair
she always knows best

take not from the one
the one who died her hair blue
the secret is kept

until the time when
the closest become closer
and all is reviled

burning inside me
formulating at my tongue
was the sound i heard

a broken promise
escapes from my impatient
soul the cannot rest

the start of something
i have only 2 dollars
be my idea

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HAIKUS FOR MADELINE CONT.

by: hannah chang schroeder

typing on dirty
surfaces in the late night
the keys should be white

the broken drywall
covering the gallery
i breath in the dust

stale spit in my mouth
forming familiar tastes
lack of words are home

it is getting cold
outside the smoke forms a cloud
i breathe on your face

slowly i change pace
counting all the cracks every time
makes me feel so safe

peanut butter smeared
a layer on my sketch book
it smells of nuts now

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MEASURE

by: hannah chang schroeder

All I know is what I know
I could know more but that does not mean I know it now
All I want is what I have or could have
All I need is what I have
I need less than I have
I have too much
I even carry on me more than I need
I speak more than I need to speak
I look
I look around all the time
Not more than needed
There is not a set amount of time for Looking
Who is looking at me?
I can see it but can it see me?
I need love
I have love
The right love
You can always have more love

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RED YO

by: hannah chang schroeder

Rose tinted glass
Felt like a crazy chicken running around in my coop
so I picked up some Rose tinted glass
Shading my eyes
Walking through a hallway with black lights
You make me feel calm
When I look into my neighbors house and I
saw a little girl dancing with her dad but it was just the t.v.
All of a sudden the waters red, the snow is red
The whites of your eyes, they are red too

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BOOM

by: hannah chang schroeder

i am a loud noise
in a small room
with no windows
bouncing from corner to corner
on the white drywall
the sound flows in my ears
like warm butter
it circles around me
spinning.

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HAIKUS FOR MADELINE

by: hannah chang schroeder

maddie eats a fry
it is a tasty french fry
but it is in france

squeeze a teddy bear
do not make the fluff come out
or we have sad bear

yellow paint on me
upside-down walking on walls
it drips on my face

the fuzzy green mold
growing on my loaf of bread
i like to eat it

don't look at the sun
without your magic glasses
because they protect

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POURING OUT OF ME

the energy was pouring out of my finger tips in waves of green
i felt like i had to touch someone to displace all of the energy flowing out of my body
insane
holding a hand while singing a song
summoning the spirits
my heart was pounding out of my body
smile glued to my face
a genuine smile from within
a smile when i know no one is looking at me because they are all as overjoyed with the situation
as i am
one voice was calling out to the dead
but the voice was sang by many
people all around me
can you hear them come?

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I dedicate this poem to my dear friend Andrea.

Andrea’s Flowers

By: Hannah Chang

My dear friend Andrea

She is a flower

A wild flower

Blowing freely in the wind

She does not boast herself up like a tower

But she lets out her shower

Her shower of love

Flowing over everything that grows

She helps you wash your bad days away

And holds your hand in the middle of the day

Andrea you mean so much to me

I lost nearly everyone close to me

You caught me just in time

And showed me how to open up and shine

I am so blessed to have you in my life

You are going to be their for the next fight

A fight with illness, a fight with war, a fight with anything at all that may be in store

With every year, we may shed a tear

A tear of joy

A tear of struggle

A tear of happiness

Forever in this friend snuggle

I’ll keep you close and don’t forget

I love you with all my heart

You are a special gift

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